September 27- Child-like Faith. Mark 10:13-16
In all of man's desires there is a thread that exists, that thread is: yearning to be desired. There is also that same thread that is: yearning to be a child. We want to have answers and we don't want to be left in the dark. When we were children we followed our father around and never questioned Him as a child. We just trusted and followed because he was our father. Now some earthly fathers may have led more into the darkness but we trusted them nonetheless.
I pray for those who have messed up relationships with their family and grew up in crappy situations. I am glad our heavenly father is not based out of our own thoughts, circumstances, emotions, and conceptions. I am thankful that He is never changing and He is the only one who fills those yearnings within.
When we walk with the Holy One, as a child and He as our father, we begin to not question Him, but trust Him. We trust that He is good, when we are children. We are then brought back to purity and walking by faith. We never think vast into the future or get sucked into our memories. We become like use to be from the beginning of the garden. Good.
I pray today I would hold His hand and walk into every moment with Him, not knowing what is going to happen but just trusting Him. Walking in the moment with a sense of peace and listen to Him and how He speaks to me and what He says about others. I pray I would listen to Him and my eyes would be open to what he is showing me. In the holy moments (which is every moment walking with the Father) and the divine encounters (which is every encounter with the Father and with others) I pray I would not think. I would just be. I would learn to unlearn the things of this world and the life that gets put upon me. I pray to become a child again. Not to focus on the future. My destiny is just to be with Him, holding his hand, in this world and through eternity. I am still alive therefore my destiny is still alive. That is my past, present, and future. He is my past, present, and future. There is no "Me" anymore. I trust Him.
I pray these things for you today as well. Enjoy Him!
Should He go unquestioned? Is that what Job would do? Is that what David would do? Is that the Psalmist would do? Is that Isreal would do?
ReplyDeleteWhen I am a slave. When I have been raped. When I have been abused. When I live in a world where black men get paid 71 cents on the dollar compared to white men and women are paid 73 cents on the dollar. When I live in a world who will look at identical resumes and pick the one with the "less ethnic" sounding name over and over again. When I live in a world where the psychological effects of small instences of racism and discrimination put such a toll on the bodies of black people that, unlike their white counterparts, blacks bloodpressure does not significantly decrease while sleeping and causes health issues. When I live in a world where lower class white women with inferior healthcare show better health during pregnancy then middle and upper class black women with good healthcare and resources all because of the compouding effects that racism plays on their bodies. And when I live in a world where white christianity stands by while all this shit happens to me:
Don't I get to say "What the fuck is up God?" Or maybe in a nicer way, like Job, but ask it none the less? Does that make me unfaithful? Does that make me untrusting? Does it mean I am not walking with the Holy One?
I think it just makes me human. I think it makes me a man or woman who bleeds real blood. I think it makes me Job - when I get welts, I call it pain. I think that makes me a human under a God I will never understand. I think that makes me a man or woman who knows my lack of priviledge in an intimate, personal and permenant way.
My intent is not to be rude, but to be honest. Trusting in God is not honest - even for a white man. We all doubt. We all have shitty moments. Lets stop trying to pretend we don't. And lets do our part to stop letting other have continually shitty moments. Lets stop expecting God to do it and realize that he called us to.